Paul Harris is a clarinettist, teacher, composer and one of the UK's leading music educationalists. In 2018 he was diagnosed with non-Hodgkin lymphoma. This candid journal documents his often gruelling treatment and offers insights into coping with serious illness, alongside reflections on the teaching and learning process. Touching on empathy, communication and identity, it is a poignant read for musicians and non-musicians alike, and is at all times thought-provoking and positive.